Faith    

Hebrew 11: 1  Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

Believe.   Trust.   Don’t be Anxious.   Pray.   Have Faith.

Sounds easy.  Seems easy.

It’s not easy.      

I have faith.  I believe in Jesus as my Savior and Lord, and I’ve never even seen him. Think about that.

Faith is a crazy idea.  In nothing else do I put my trust without testing the waters, observing, and feeling it out.  With God, things are different.  My spirit is willing, but my flesh is so frail.  My spirit says “Jump….He’s got you.”  My flesh says….”You’re Crazy! Hold tight to what you have.”

I get consumed by what I see.  It’s easier to follow what’s laid out in front of me. I have monetary needs, parental advice,  “pastoral”  advice, friends’ advice, personal ambition….all of which is tangible and sound, yet anchored in the visible, safe and logical.

I want faith. Real faith. I want to be available to God with confidence and assurance. I want to believe without sight.

 -Insights from the life of just another pastor’s wife.