Shortly after he was born, I was attempting to put words to my experience and emotions. The best I could do was this line: “I never knew what I didn’t have, until I got to hold what I have now.” It is an awesome experience to hold your first born in your arms for the first time.

Quickly, however, I began considering what we’ve done. There are so many possibilities a new life brings. Joys and heartache. What kind a man will this sweet babe become? What role will I play? What a great opportunity…a great responsibility.

My husband and I started praying for this boy long before he was being knitted together. And we gave him up to God then. Although my personality would rather control and cling to him,  he’s not just mine.  He’s God’s Will.

Love you, Little Buddy. <3